“But sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a girl, maybe.. it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is just moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope.”

“Do you ever get that feeling where you don’t want to talk to anybody? You don’t want to smile and you don’t want to fake being happy but at the same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong either, there isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. At least when you’re alone no one constantly asks you what’s wrong and there isn’t anyone who won’t take “I don’t know” for an answer. you feel the way you do just because. you hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.”

SHUT UP

MOVE ON

GROW UP 
  

(AND GROW A PAIR WHILE YOU'RE AT IT)

When it comes to finding the right person, it all comes down to how well she know you, and how well she would be willing to get to know you. Finding a person who would understand your faults and love you for every single one of them. Some one who will cherish their time with you, and never doubt that you cherish your time with them. The person that can fight with you and hurt you, but still be there for you through thick and thin. It may not that makes things easy, but it’s the right girl, the one that you love, and you know loves you back.

Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts. Don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours

I just got really hurt. And sometimes when that happens, something inside just shuts off.

People who make us happy are never the people you expect.

and on a personal note to Rachel Ong, a dear sister in Christ who is currently hurting from a failed misadventure on this thing called premature concept of Love.......

"I guess if we relied on other people to make us happy, we would spend alot of time feeling sad."

I miss you...... A decade ago's Isaac Tan.......

pain. 


the word is relative actually.


now? 


quite.


later? Very


why?


Я не очень нуждающегося человека, но я просто хочу чувствовать себя приняли,любили, нужен и дорог.

Я жаждут внимания, я люблю восхищения, и я определенно необходимо близости.

Я очень не хочу быть один, я возмущаться одиночества и я больше всего ненавижу то, что я все еще не готовы быть в отношениях. Фактом является то, что я долженпринять. 
Но я просто хочу провести кого-то быть в объятиях другой даме 
Я бредовые?

Нет, я просто быть человеком.


go translate it if you can.


and yes I speak, write and curse Russian fluently сукой


angst to the max 

Oh God, You know that is really my desire to want to belong to someone and to be in love with someone, by heavenly Father, Your ways are higher than my ways, Your thoughts higher than mine. Daddy make me into the man that You want me to be. Sometimes I really dunno how. Show me the way Lord. I do not trust myself but I trust you God. I was born but not raised without a Father, but in turn I got You. Lord Your grace is sufficient for me, Your providence is more than I could ever ask for. But Lord, I need to see it and experience Your divine love that encompasses all things that is beyond measure and imagination. God you know my heart full well and You know my thoughts before they were ever conceived. But Lord You also know the moulding days of my life, the challenging days and the days that will require my hill faith and might to believe in You. Father I wanna rest in You Lord. I dunno how that is going to happen but I choose to trust in YOU, the Lord of hope and love. Father you are the father of the fatherless, I pray that may You be my tender loving Father as I walk this earth all the remaining days of my life. I really need you Lord

Wa chialat. Last warning ah this type. HEART, Y U NO PATIENCE?! Yes, she pretty amazing and honestly, quite cute and awesome at the same time. But you gotta learn to wait! Trust and Obey la Isaac!

Back into the shadows will I fade.

Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home 



Lemme go hoommeeee.....

time.to.focus

enough.bullshit.

enough.stress.

enough.resolute

enough.

lets go

Dear me,

I know its been a hard year so far. Its been both tiring and exhausting and admit it, you knew this was gonna happen. Last year has been so wasted its really not worth mentioning and anything before that has been pretty much filed under the category of- History: worth revisiting when free- section of my life.

Human life is hard, and whether we'd like to admit or deny it, its really not an easy journey. Samme once said that in this fight, you can either throw in the towel or use it to wipe the sweat off your forehead. well in other words, its either you lie and die, or you jolly well die trying. Life doesnt always guarantee successes, trust me, its not a life that is worth living if everyday was like Christmas. Its just so...dull, after awhile.

Life was meant to be filled with the ups and downs that contain in it, but I digress.

Lately the urge of wanting to have companionship, a partner, grew strong. As I re-looked at the recent scares that I bore, I realised that the very fact that I feel that way is but really human. We all crave for attention, crave for significance, and sometimes even crave for intimacy, regardless of the physicality or emotional aspect.
Its fully understandable and perfectly natural to be feeling this way, for God intended Man and Woman to be together as one body by His divine appointment and timing.

Rebecca and Isaac (ref to Genesis) did not find each other out of desperation, but their fathers both knew that their children has got to have a partner once they are of age and maturity. Their fathers knew the importance, also, to find one that is both suitable and compatible for their children. By God's wonderful way, Rebecca and Isaac became man and wife, how beautiful isn't it?

Wanting to be in a relationship isn't wrong, in fact, it only goes to show and prove that we are developing healthily as young adults from teenagers. But it does not translate that we should go out and quickly find one or settle with the one that is currently interested in us just because it 'feels' right/ or that the person doesn't 'seem' to be a bad person what. That's just not the way it should be. It not only seems desperate, to always have a different partner as your bf/gf, but its also damaging to the image of our Father that created us, IN HIS LIKENESS. Darling we are created in His image, so please live up to that image boy.

Our heavenly father knows exactly what is important to us, he clothes in lilies in the field and feed the birds in the air, how much more will God take care of our needs, when He calls us the apple of His eye?
He knows that we do need companionship one day, and we need the real physical person that not only spurs us on in our faith in Him, but also be our life partner.

But the word of the day is patience, to await God's beautiful appointment and timing for everything, and not jump the gun and do things our way. Many instances have we destroyed God's wonderous plans by being impatient and assuming that we know what's best for ourselves.

We have the best history book on Earth: The Holy B.I.B.L.E.
Basic
Instructions
Before
Leaving
Earth

In it contains every episode of what mankind would ever encounter and how best to live it.


I believe I have learnt my lesson, hard. It was painful by now I yield upon Your control, Lord. I know not what plans you have for me, but I know you have a plan to prosper me (in whichever way You deem fit) and not to harm me.

So my dear me, learn and remember this lesson by hard, for when you seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things will be added unto me.

With warmest regards,
Me

God I love you.

Current Status: -_-

ECONS: UPS.
Tutorial: Done.
MATHS: THANK GOD I DID A-MATHS in sec school =D SO DAYM EASY!
STATS: THANK GOD I DID H2 MATHS in JC =D SO DAYM EASY x 2!!
PBF: Christina Lai is crap. Gonna shift it to either Mon morn of afternoon =D
POA: Before I can even start on him theres so much flak on this guy I don't even wanna go there.
Shifting it to Tues. =D

SHYT I have classes at later at 7pm. Thanks to HARI RAYA next tues.
PFFTTTT

Hahaha while having lects yest one OG friend of mine said I was so professional in organising mah stuff.
hahahahahahahahahaah
RIGHT.

Got 15 mins before I leave the house. Can I not go pls???

Please, come into my arms?

like NAO?

I wanna be there to comfort you when you tear,
I wanna be there in share in your pains and burdens,
I wanna be there to cheer you on when youre at your weakest,
I wanna be there to soldier you on when the walk seems to get too tough,
I wanna b ethere to share in your joys, fears and happiness;
.
.
.
.
In other words, can you hold my hand in yours and yours in mine?



















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